Tuesday, April 19, 2011

titus 3:3-7

"At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life."

I am prideful and greedy. My human heart longs for praises of myself; to be liked, loved, and beautiful. My selfish desires often consume me without me even noticing it. I have been foolish, disobedient, deceived, and enslaved by so many things of this world that pull me away from the Cross. Things that make my soul settle for just walking slowly to Jesus instead of running as fast as I can to His feet. I have lived in envy and hated my brothers and sisters. I haven't loved people well, and haven't loved some people at all.
But then, something happened. Kindness and love appeared. I learned what it means to be fully known and fully loved. To be enough. God saved me from the world, from the sinful desires of my heart. He saved me from myself. Nothing that I did, nothing that I can do, therefore nothing I can boast in or be proud of. He washed me and renewed me and made me whole and clean and pure. He, so generously, gave me the Holy Spirit so that I may be with Him always. I have been justified only through his grace that I have no choice but to let wash over me daily or I would be overwhelmed with shame. I am a princess to my Father, and heir to the holiness of His Kingdom. I pray that the riches of his love are enough for me on earth. That his grace and mercy and glory would be the only thing I am proud of.


*cami* said...

i love this. it makes me think of the amazing cs lewis. he always seems to spell out my heart so devastatingly beautifully. 'Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.'

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