Friday, April 1, 2011

today.

I am exhausted. This past week has been so emotional and exciting and crazy. I have gained a lot of new friends, but lost a lot of sleep. I am sick, stuffy, and tired. On top of it all, there are papers, projects, and tests that need to get done and friendships that need nurturing. Also, my family is going through a lot and my heart is in a different city today. I feel like I am in neutral today, just drifting along from class to class. But in the midst, the Lord has found me.

Some people brought a man who could neither hear nor speak and asked Jesus to lay a healing hand on him. He took the man off by himself, put his fingers in the man's ears and some spit on the man's tongue. Then Jesus looked up in prayer, groaned mightily, and commanded, "Ephphatha!—Open up!" And it happened. The man's hearing was clear and his speech plain—just like that.

Mark 7:32-35

I love that the Jesus pulls us away from the crowd to be with Him in the midst of our inability to hear Him or speak to Him. That He touched the man because that is his only way for him to understand what is happening. I love that Jesus speaks to us in our language. That when my ears and mouth are shut to Him, that Christ finds another way to remind me of His love and grace. Today, the Lord has spoken to me in the sunshine. As my heart ached in hearing the brokenness going on with my family in Nashville and refused to hear the good in it or speak to the Lord about it, He reminded me of His love with His creation. The days have been cold and dreary here in Knoxville this past week, but my soul has found its own warmth in the excitement of events going on. Today, however, my soul is cold and lost in busyness and tiredness but the sun is shining and reminding me of the peace and light found in Christ. The Lord opened my ears and mouth by opening my eyes and speaking my language. He pulled me out of the crowdedness of my schedule and out of the worry and opened my hears to hear Him say, "I love you, Lindsey. Trust me with today. Know that I am with you. Do not worry, remember that everything is in My hands." And in hearing Him, my mouth was opened. I was reminded to let go of my burdens and pour out my heart. To give up my worries and let my day revolve around closeness and conversation with Him. The Lord's holiness has rescued me today from making it all about me. The Lord groans for my heart, eyes, ears, mouth, mind, and soul to be opened. To be healed and restored. He groans for a relationship with me.

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